Sunday, April 01, 2007

I ain't foolin, leewee has a new journal entry

titled: sabbatical.

below please find excerpts of this week's journal entry for our hedonistic coffee tawk and the howard cosell of jesus' responses.

Not only was my schedule out of whack last fall but God, in His infinite wisdom, chose to use that season of my life to do an emotional and spiritual makeover in my heart at the same time. I’m fairly certain it wasn’t coincidental. Since I’m pretty sure that brokenness was the goal, God allowed the stress to come at me from all sides to breakthrough my strength so that He could reach the most protected parts of my heart. He started a deep work that still feels like it is in the beginning stages.

so, now that j-dawg has broken his shrew, what are his intentions? what about our spiritual and emotional makeover?

Toward the end of 2006 I felt like the Lord was calling me to a Sabbatical. At first I thought it meant that I wasn’t to write a book in 2007, other than “The Busy Teacher’s Guide to Prayer

and so filled with ideas you were! not being a teacher or having any idea what a teacher needs prayer for. but, off you went to save the hearts and souls of educators everywhere. wait, aren't you a homeschool teacher? and still no idea what to write. curious, no?

we're getting into my favorite part now! First He made it clear that it was to be a full year off from writing – from May 2007 to May 2008. Then, out of the blue, (yea right!) my publisher asked me to reconsider writing the Teacher Prayer book. They wanted another title but I suggested that we shelf the idea of another book altogether until after God was finished with whatever He was up to in my life. They sensitively and graciously agreed.

so that's what you tell publishers when you have writer's block, that god is doing a new work in you. who knew that's the key to bowing out of a deadline. amazing, ain't it?

leewee and jdawg are as thick as thieves. he's always working his mojo, so why is this book different from all other books? I think someone is having a pasach moment?!?!

I am free from all book commitments! Praise the Lord.
Last fall, the Lord gave me the passage from Ephesians 3:16-21 as my focus for this sovereign work. I have personalized it for myself and say it every day this way, “According to the riches of God’s glory, I am strengthened with might through His Spirit in my inner man. Christ dwells in my heart and I am rooted and grounded in His love. I comprehend with all of the saints what is the length and width and depth and height of His love that passes knowledge. I am filled with all the fullness of God! God is doing exceedingly, abundantly above all that I can ask or think according to His power that works in me. To Him be the glory in me, the church and my family to all generations forever and ever. Amen.”

That is my goal…to know, really know and experience, the love of Christ. I want to know myself better, go places in my heart that I have been too afraid to approach up until now. I also want to know my family and friends more intimately and be able to have the love of Christ flow through me to the people I am called to serve and encourage, namely you!

got a q4-leewee... he hasn't been flowing through her to us in the past? she made it very clear in entry upon entry that she was our b-line to the big dawg himself. she makes it sound like she's been dishing up a variation on christ, not the real deal. well, this is most disconcerting, isn't it?

I still plan to journal but not as regularly and consistently. As I have time and as the Lord stirs things in my heart and life that I put down on paper (or a Word doc) I will be excited to share them with you.

love the clarity!

My goal is to be more consistent with my monthly E-letter but I can’t even guarantee that. I just promise to be true to whatever pace God is working and hopefully that will mean keeping up regular communication with you in some form or another over this next year. Who knows, God may start speaking so fast that I have more to write about than ever and my journal entries won’t slow down at all. I really don’t know. Please pray that God will complete the work He has started in me and that I will have the courage to go as deep as He desires. I have a feeling that my life and ministry won’t even look the same when this heart work is done. I am filled with holy expectation for what is ahead. I hope you will still be here waiting for me. I miss you already.

this all feels very pr-to-resurrect-one's-career. is that cunty? ps: love the pineage for her peeps so soon into her good-bye, please.


Dale said...

Why is j-dawg always wanting to go so deep with the LeeWee? We all know she can't take it.

lulu said...

They should have me write that book. I'm a teacher and I pray every fucking day, although I have a feeling that most of my prayers would follow the same basic format.

"Please God, don't let me kill this fucking child"

"Please God, don't let me kill my fucking principal."

"please God, don't let me kill this fucking clueless parent."

Coaster Punchman said...

Oh dear, this girl really is not well, is she? I especially love it when the Lord speaks to us with specific dates in mind. Yeah honey, he made it clear that your menstrual flow was supposed to be May 3 through May 7th with the 4th to be the heaviest day, n'est-ce pas? What the FUCK????

Tanya Espanya said...

And she's into RV Lifestyle...I thought it was something dirty and therefore worthwhile, but no, it's just gross camping on wheels...what a freak!


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