oh, what a tangled web of sorrow...
over the past few days something tragic has been happening. something I haven't wanted to face. hoping desperately it would pass. but, it's not passing. it's a persistent and unrelenting issue that keeps rearing its ugly head. poking and prodding like bush at a woman's right to choose. a love affair that I have been engaged in for several years seems to be coming to a catastrophic ending. I feel lost, unsure of how I'll forge onward without the comfort and closeness we shared. my heart aches and breaks. I keep telling myself, maybe it's not really happening . maybe it's just a nightmare. keep forging onward, katie, try to keep you two together. yet, try as I might, all of the answers seem to be pointing to a break-up. endings are devestating enough, but this one, well, this one is just riddled in angst and grief. in the hopes of trying to make sense of such a painful loss, I sat shiva today and shrouded my mirrors thinking only of the good times we shared. ...