Katie Schwartz

The Kid died one month ago today. That occurred to me just a few hours ago. I kept telling myself today was August 31st. It's September 1st. I KNOW. Happy Anniversary is wildly inappropriate. It's right up there with going to a non-Jewish funeral and asking who will be attending the after party . Guilty. I worked on an essay about hagamuffin today and recalled so many fabulous memories. I laughed and I cried. It was cathartic. It was difficult and that's OK. I still miss him so much. I think I always will. I need to learn to live with that, which I will do... eventually.

My dad sent me an Alice Walker (love her so much, I can't stand it) essay. The below is excerpted from, Crimes Against Dog , from her book, We Are the Ones We Have Been Waiting For: Light in a Time of Darkness . Have you read it? I just bought it-- can't wait to read it. Alice Walker is the earth mother incarnate. What a divine soul... The Crimes Against Dog essay was in this month's Ecologist Magazine . My dad is so green. Who knew?! Anywho... The essay made me feel so much better for a million different reasons. It's a beautiful read. Scroll down. Crimes Against Dog Alice Walker For Wendy My dog, Marley, was named after the late music shaman, Bob Marley. I never saw or heard him while he was alive, but once I heard his music, everything about him-his voice, his trancelike, holy dancing on stage, his leonine dreadlocks-went straight to my heart. He modeled such devotion to the well-being of humanity that his caring inspired the world; I felt a more sincere individual ...

I'm in the middle of a wild miscommunication with a now former friend. it makes me crazy when someone who knows me, really knows me , takes something I say and decides that I'm someone I'm not without taking the soul of who I am into consideration. that wouldn't send a flag pole of ire up your ass?! oh, please, missy. you know it would. on the eye inFUCKtion front, it's still going strong, thank you very much. itchy-burny-stabby-painy-blurry. whatev. I've reached new heights of ocular ugliness. at least it's not ebola or cancer. a girl has to be grateful and maintain perspective, doesn't she?! indeed she fucking does.

not 1, not 2, not 3.... 7 of ya's broke up with me. WTF?! a girl's dog peels. she gets an eye infection and now you're done with her chubby jew ass? that's nice, real nice. you didn't think I'd find out, didjya? I'm not that stupid, putzeem. go. run. have a katiefree labor fucking day weekend. see if I care.